Confession: I haven’t really liked myself lately.
This has nothing to do with my hair not cooperating or the fact that my favorite fall clothes are not fitting the way I like. It’s more than that. It’s less than that. I haven’t liked my attitude lately. And by that I mean, if I could figure out a painless way to curb stomp some sense into me, I would.
I’ve been sleeping well. I’ve been visiting friends. I’ve been working regularly. I’ve been running and reading and writing in my journal. I’ve been taking my vitamins, deep conditioning my hair, remembering to wear my glasses. I’ve paid my bills, gone for dinner, cleaned my closet.
And still?
I’ve been angry. Irrationally angry. About everything.
Slow drivers. Fast talkers. Misspelled words. Expectations I can’t meet. The Starbucks employee scoffing at my order. Being too hot. Being too cold. Joe the Plumber. Dark mornings. Parents who don’t pack lunches for their children. Forecasted snow. Careless comments. Slow mail. Being on hold. Couples who make out in the grocery store. Being sneezed on. People who don’t say “thank you”. Anonymous emails. Frost on my windshield.
Of course, with anger- irrational or otherwise, comes guilt. Guilt at getting mad over the child who spills his entire lunch on the floor after he’s been told he needs to eat in his desk not dancing around the room. Guilt at not being ‘the fun friend’ or the even just the friend who can do everything she once promised she could. Guilt that’s the residue of all the anger I feel towards everything. Everyone.
I know that it will pass.
It has to- I’m too young to have permanent frown lines.
* Something good: Reason 862043 I like blogging? I just finished a conversation with my favorite blogger who reminded me of this post she wrote. Just to show me that everyone has those days (weeks?) where you are mad at everything. This further shows why I like this girl so darn much. (And for the record, I couldn’t agree more about the cocktails comment).
swiss cheese, bad reality tv, a good romp (or so im told?), time with friends, googling pictures of george clooney, and gin.
these things, i think will help.
xx
I hate it when I feel that way. Isn’t it great how you can talk with someone and even just saying the words out loud makes things better, even if the other end way empty. The power of an open ear is amazing.
We all have those weeks, days, hours and if were lucky minutes.
You’re too long for botox! You better start smiling!
xxxo
Ew, someone sneezed on you?
I’ve been feeling like this too lately and I agree that just voicing or even typing out your anger offers some release. Cheering for you over here.
I’ve been feeling a lot like this too lately. It seems like all the little things are piling up all at once. Sigh.
I hate feeling that way. The worst part? You KNOW when you’re being irrational…it’s just hard not to be sometimes!
Have a good steamy mug of blueberry tea (the kind with Ameretto in it) and relax in a hot bath. Hopefully you’ll feel better!
Ex. Act. Ly.
p.s. Where is this blueberry tea with Amaretto in it?? That sounds amazing!
My body is so tired lately but my brain is on on on on and when it gets on one track – angry, irrational, fearful, giddy, whatever, it just STAYS there like a skipping record. I have to take pills to sleep even though I am physically exhausted.
Feel better :o)
Those are the moments when I need a mini vacation. Take a day off and unwind.
hmmm…after reading this and your link, i’m sensing a cyber-synching of cycles…that’s amazing….and really makes me happy i’m..uhh…more than 20-something LOL…sorry…didn’t mean to laugh at your pain :(
I hear ya. The worst part of the irrationality is that you know it will past but for the loveofgod you can’t feel better because you want it to be over NOWNOWNOW. Hope it gets better soon.
p.s: also do not like people who do not say thank you. as pedantic it may be. i just want to claw their eyes out sometimes.
ah.. I know this feeling.
too well.
I have been feeling the same way…. not my bubbly happy self… I have been irritable and pretty much a grump for about 2 weeks now… and for the life of me I couldn’t tell you why…. maybe it’s something in the water????
We’re only human. Things are going to annoy us. Hopefully it’ll die down soon. Hugs!
I don’t like these phases, either. I think I’ve been in one myself, despite my not revealing it. And how I know it’s really bad? Someone tells me it’s a phase and even that pisses me off. So I’ll shut up and try not to do the same here.
I think mindless Internet surfing and some kind of drink will help. Couldn’t hurt.
I’m feeling that way myself lately. Sometimes it’s a struggle to put on my happy face in the morning.
But… but… you closed the comments on the one before this. I wanted to “WHOOOO!” Trudeau.
Wait, so you are saying that being annoyed at everything isn’t supposed to be a daily occurrence?
Ah, the funk. It sucks. When I feel that way I want to avoid everyone b/c I know I’m being unreasonable and irrational and not fun, but of course, it’s often being around people that can pull us out. Sending you happy thoughts and wishes for quick snap out of it.
Hi,
I’m new to your blog and love what I’m seeing. You seem to put to words what I can not easily express verbally. I know exactly what you mean about being angry. I’m tired of being angry at everything but nothing in particular.
I’ll be back for more.
I hear ya! My mantra lately has been two-fold: “You’re actually a nice person” (gotta love conversations with yourself) and “Soon the election will be over.” The correlation may be tenuous but I keep thinking people in general, including me, may be slightly less testy after Nov. 4. Unless the chads dangle. In which case, god help my coworkers until the holidays at least.
don’t you just wish we had internal buttons to push to control our feelings? i bet the “happy” one would get worn out though. but i totally get the “funk” and can’t shake it sometimes. In fact right now I am going through a “sad funk” instead of an “angry funk”.
I would tell you some stupid cliche like “this too shall pass”, but i even think that’s stupid and don’t want to get cyberpunched…instead I advise you to just go tell someone off…someone really deserving that has had it coming for a while. It’ll make you feel better.
I feel you, lady. Don’t worry it will pass. I feel like this many times working with my attorneys. ;) ha!
I pretty much hate on everything these days as well AND we still have sunshine and good weather. I can’t even imagine if we didn’t – I’d likely be hanging from the rafters.
I know exactly how you feel! You should get laid by someone who knows what they’re doing. And I don’t mean by some douche you meet in a bar who can’t figure out how to unhook your bra. And if you have no desire to do that, drink wine or margaritas. I hope you feel better soon!
I usually escape with some Jane Austen when I’m feeling kerflunkt. Or chocolate.
I feel like you just read my mind. I am copping it up to the season’s changing and it getting cold too soon. I’m not ready for winter yet. That is what I’m going to keep telling myself anyway. It’s not ME, it’s the WEATHER.
Regardless, it too shall pass and we will both be feeling better (hopefully sooner rather than later) eventually. Maybe tonight is a wine night…
Whenever I get in these ‘funks’, I listen to ‘Build Me Up Buttercup’. Give it a go! I think it will maybe help.
I hear you! I am so mad right now and have absolutely now reason at all to be mad. I am so worried right now and neither have I reason for that. I am frustrated and angry and lethargic, I feel ugly and lack self esteem and I am uninspired.
Let there be light. Soon, please.
Hope you feel better soon, you’re not alone… ;)
I am so with you on this. Sometimes, seriously you just need a night out with the ladies to pull you out of your funk. Dancing on top of the bar at 3AM is enough to pull anyone out of their funk.
This may sound weird, but sometimes I wish I got angry more often…
Same thing happens to me. Must be why my boss claims I’m so glass half-empty! It’s always the little things that get you riled up, ya know?
Good luck getting out of the funk.
Welcome to my world!!! :)
It’s true, we all go through those times…but I’m sure some more fiercely than others. You’ll get through it and you’re fabulous. :)
Don’t worry about it. YOU’RE NORMAL! YOU GET ANNOYED! It’s probably just the change in the seasons. Give it time and things will get better. Try to think positive (it’s the mantra that I live by) and I know it’ll work for you. Just keep your head up.
Maybe you’ll feel better after the election. If not? go watch 20 Hours in America and see if *that* makes you feel better :)
You weren’t kidding when you said we were going through the same funk.
WORD.
I know these times… I write hate letters in my mind due to the most banal of injustices, including the woman who sits on the outside seat of the bus and makes me climb over her. I don’t like myself angry… but sometimes it feels like it is where my energy is destined to go.
arrrrrg! joe the plumber…..i feel the same way about joe sixpack
Hi,
I can relate to your post. I am a young [Canadian] working full time. This week I am managing to get out of bed at least 40 minutes after my alarm goes off. I have resorted to looking messy because I am not meeting with clients (caring less and less what coworkers think). The dark mornings and chilly walks to work are taking a toll on me.
I think we all have those weeks.
I am a newish blogger trying to chronicle my way through leaving student life and entering the professional world (even if I am an actress in this professional play for some time). Stop in and visit sometime.
it is definitely normal to have days/weeks where you hate everyone and everything. happens to me once a month ;-)
I think you’re just sad you don’t see your Walter more often. :)
Buck up- Obama’s in the lead, so maybe the world won’t end afterall.
These weeks are totally normal. Sometimes they turn into months! It’s just that you start to question if you’re ever going to feel OK and…you will. You’ll get through it. Keep blogging. I find it helps.
It will pass. Don’t forget, we are women, we have hormones and those hormones fuck with our heads and emotions ALL THE TIME. I mean, think about it, I think women have one, maybe two, weeks of somewhat normalcy a month. Sigh. You have a lot of things going for you and you know it. Don’t pressure yourself into feeling that you have to play a role for a friend, take care of yourself first, your friends will still love you.
Oh wow, this is so familiar! Unfortunately when I’m like this I usually end up saying nothing to the offending party, and taking it out on the poor Colonel when I get home. Have a good weekend and feel better!
brookem- I like all of those. ALL OF THOSE! ;)
Sara Jane- Yes my friend, that IS a great thing. Thanks for doing that for me.
Michelle- I teach little kids. I’m lucky if all I get is a sneeze on me. Trust me. :(
e- Exactly!
Ask Alice- Whooo blueberry tea with ameretto??? That sounds delicious!!
Laurie- Ha! Glad someone can relate!
Rebekah- Yep, I get this. Unisom has become my best friend lately.
Larissa- Definitely good advice!
thistle- Don’t worry, I know what you mean!
Mae- I’m glad you get the ‘thank you’ bit. It’s SO SMALL but it bothers me so much.
Deutlich- I’m still storing up some anger for some broken kneecaps if you ever need it still…
Wooly- Maybe. Or… maybe it’s just October. I like blaming months. They can’t talk back.
LCT- Aww thanks!
justrun- Ha! I love you for writing this.
littlespoon- Exactly!
Peter- I was hoping some Canada would appreciate the shout out. If only more people in the world KNEW how cool he was. Hello? Fingering the press? Yes please!
DOK- This one made me laugh out loud. Thank you.
Ally- Aww thank you so much. Thankfully, the funk has moved away. Or moved on. Or dissolved. Or whatever a funk does!
Ashmystir- Thanks for visiting!!
beth- I think I need to use those. BOTH OF THEM. The kicker is that the election stress is completely of my own doing. I don’t live in the States- I don’t see the signs, turn on the radio and hear speeches. I actively search it out. I contribute to my own insanity. Yikes.
Suz- YES!!! I would love that button.
Katie- Oh you poor girl!! ;)
EB- Seriously? I think some sunshine would improve my mood dramatically. WIND WARNINGS? COLD WIND WARNINGS do not make me happy.
leanbean- This is my Saturday night goal.
mcmisura- Whooo Jane Austen! Great idea. Although, I’d rather have popcorn than chocolate.
Kellie- Sounds like you and I think very similar. I like blaming the seasons!
Lauren- I did! And it DID help. Thank you!
Katrin- “let there be light”. I’m so with you!
Semichrmd- Shockingly enough… I DID that last weekend. Ha! Oh the stories I forget to blog about…
geekhiker- That’s not weird at all. I know a few people like that. I can lend you some anger until you find your own…
A SUper Girl- Thank you! Funk has left the building!
UrbanVox- You poor soul!
Alexis- Aww thank you!!!
Angela- Definitely great advice to remember. Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing it!
Nicole- You know? I love you for suggesting that.
Sizzle- Dude. I know!
Princess Pointful- “but sometimes it feels like it is where my energy is destined to go”. Sigh. Exactly.
dmb5_libra- Dude. “Joe-” anything just needs to outlawed for the next 10 days.
Ruby Red- Thanks for stopping by and for your great comment! Those dark mornings are going to be the end of me.
Michelle- Ha! Good point. ;)
Nic- You know… there’s probably more truth in that comment than I’d like to admit. Oh Mini-Walter… you are so damn miss-able!
Kari- Thank you for saying this!
typographysnob- Thank you. I felt better just reading this!
Daisy- Poor Colonel! Seriously though, thanks for your good wishes. I think this is going to be a great weekend!
I agree – the grocery store is no place for smooches. i dated a guy once who was uber-affectionate in public and i’m for that when you’re alone but it’s like “hands off! you can wait ten minutes to make out with me.”
And I’m so sick of hearing about Joe the Plumber that if I ever actually MET a plumber named Joe I would probably kick him out of my house and suffer through life without hot water.