November 2006- Start my blog. On a whim. Because I’m killing time before going on a date. My first post talks about how bloggers are pretentious (no really, it does) and how I’m scared no one is going to read my blog. And then, because I’m afraid no one WILL read my blog, I attach my blog url to my email so every “real life” friend will have access to it. (I later refer to this “Blogging Mistake #1“).
November 2006- December 2006= No one reads my blog and I do not understand why. Doesn’t the internet know I exist?
January 2007= Someone introduces me to the idea of commenting on other blogs. My world gets bigger. And the “spare time” window shrinks.
March 2007= I get introduced to google reader. The idea of “spare time” is now laughable.
August 2007= I get my first really nasty email related to blogging. I cry.
September 2007= My first experience with plagarism. It’s as romantic and lovely as you imagine.
October 2007= I fall so in love with bloggers, I showcase some of my favourites.
March 2008= I have my second freak out seeing my words attached to someone else’s name. The phrase “imitation is the sincerest form of flattery” makes me want to punch a puppy.
October 2008= I say what I still feel. About you, and blogging and dogs who eat their own poop. This becomes one of my favourite posts, one that I will re-read now after getting a nasty emails still suck like a bad hair cut on a first date, they don’t bother me as much now. Because for every nasty email, there’s a gazillion nice ones. Good triumphs evil and all that jazz.
November 2008= After reading a blog that mentioned how the person doesn’t put up a new post until they’ve responded to all the comments they have received, I decide I’m going to do the same.
December 2008= I realize I suck at replying to comments. And commenting. I’m reading as much as ever, but December/January have been hellish in terms of time. I offer my kidney to numerous bloggers as an apology for my lack of commenting.
April 2007- January 2009= I worry less about generating comments. I write when the mood strikes, with abandon and often without any idea of what I’m saying. My posts are long, my grammar is poor and at times I’m so self indulgent that I make Veruca Salt look saintly. I develop friendships with bloggers, people who know about coding and comment moderation and who understand why google reader is life changing. But they also understand me,- maybe not the way my “real life” friends do, but they know about Mallard and my political views and are far more versed in my insecurities and frustrations regarding being a teacher. Because sometimes it’s easier for me to write it than say it out loud, these friends often get the unvarnished version of what is bothering me. I realize that I’m no longer commenting just to ‘put my name out there’, I’m commenting because I want to wish you good luck because I know how much you want the interview to go well, or I’m excited that you are engaged or I’m heartbroken about your loss. I comment because I want you to know I’m reading and less because I want people to read me. I also get lazy when it comes to starting new paragraphs.
January 2009= I publish a post talking about Blogging annoyances and then read multiple people talking about how they felt it was directed at them. Which? Breaks my heart. I decide to write a post about the evolution of me as a blogger, to show that I often do exactly what I said I find annoying (long, self indulgent posts with a lot of links and minimal content? Check!). And that’s how it should be. Because no blog is perfect. Sometimes you can’t tell the best story without it getting long. I know this. I’ve done this. And I know the day will come where I will once again do it again. And sometimes LOLZ talk makes me laugh. (True story, but let’s keep it on the down low).
If I’ve learned anything this week, it’s that you all think God farts and that we all have insecurities about our blogs. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone in either of these thoughts, though I have to say, anyone of you who is willing to put your words out there should be confident about them, because they are worth sharing.
Now. It’s Friday. It’s time to plan some adventures that involve making some well thought out, bad choices.
Have a good weekend everyone!